2013. Happy New Year. Wow, we made it! To be honest, I never thought I would be this disabled ever! But here I am and I’m going to give it my all. Don’t get me wrong I do get down because of my situation. Things just aren’t the way I would like them to be but I know that my attitude today is of utmost importance. I truly believe in diligently playing the hand you’ve been dealt, multiple sclerosis and all!
My new surroundings make things nice. Even though right now I’m truly content, I still just keep waiting for things to not be so difficult and trying. When is it going to get easier? I know I have a progressive disease, but that doesn’t make it any easier to accept the new found limitations I face.
In the beginning, like most I was relapsing remitting, now I’m secondary progressive. What’s next? Do I just continue to slowly lose abilities?
The sad thing is, I think so.
That’s why in the face of this unforgiving reality it would behoove us to make the most of what we have. Even if what you have is unacceptable to your former self.
The answer for me is to strive to be continually grateful for my imperfect present.