“I am who I am and that’s all I got.” Beverly Lober
This was the last line of a blog I just read. This New Year I haven’t made any resolutions, but after reading that line I suddenly wanted to lean toward greater acceptance of what is. Yes, I’ve been talking about that for just about the entire time I’ve had this blog.
Believe it or not, talking about it has helped. But in the face of new symptoms or just spiraling health in general, I question how closely I’m heeding my own words. In essence, I’m talking the talk but not walking the walk. Do you remember that saying?
Lately my endurance has dwindled to nothing. The functionality of my fine motor skills in both hands is decreasing. This makes simple things like flipping on a light switch challenging. I believe something is happening with my speech. People are always asking me to repeat myself. Lastly, I can’t walk. I know somewhere out there is someone worse off, so I apologize if I offend you or come across poorly.
I find myself again entering a new normal. That transition part is the hardest every time. You have to redefine who you are all over again. That or either get to a point where you don’t define yourself by what you can or cannot do.
That’s it! I think I’ve stumbled upon something here.
Though I write a lot about Buddha, I pray to my heavenly Father. I have purpose just the way I am.
We all do.